Dear Diary,
I am currently sitting in my bed, contemplating my dating life. Long story short, I downloaded a dating app on my phone in hopes of making connections with people (bad idea already).
About a week ago, I matched with this guy who lived about an hour away from me, and after about a week of talking, we decided to meet up. Yesterday, he arrived at my apartment, and everything was fine so far. He gave me a flower (a green flag in my book), and we seemed to have so much in common. We decided to put on a movie and things escalated from there. He ended up staying the night.
I thought everything was going good so far. He was cute, funny, the sex was good. But it all started to go downhill. One of my biggest red flags in a person is when they say slurs, especially when they do NOT have the privilege to say so.
This man, a white guy btw, said the n word. I have never felt so turned off, and absolutely disgusted, in a long time. It was so odd, because he considered himself "progressive" (his words, not mine).
*Sigh*
It's very upsetting. I have been single for a while, so I thought that it would be nice to put myself out there and meet some people, yk? I may be feeling a little dramatic, but it makes me wonder...
Am I done dating men?!
Stay weird,
Manic
